I wonder whether am i really a big loser toward Friendship?? Am i not worth to be a friend toward some of my friends? AM i weirdo to some friends???

Yes, i might seem to have lot of friends around me, but! how many of them are really concern about me?

Friends to me is a pillar in my life, they are alway there to share and listen to my problems. Is it too much from me? Sometimes i will think am i really dun deserve to be a friends who can lend my ears to my friends?

Am i really a bad friend to pple? why do they think i dun deserve to be a friend?? WEll, even if adult also need friendship around them rite??? WHY? adult oredi can talk about friends???

To me if fated to let me know a person! i will definitely treat the person as a friend. Cos i believe, knowing the person to be my friend is fated. Although sometimes i might not be able to contact all my friends all the while, but i alway put their in my mind. Really hope to meet up and contact back my long lost friends.

I will try to be a Good friend to all my fellow friends!!!!!!!! really wan to be a good friend for all my friends to treasure! hope that it is not wrong.... WEll, i alway got alot of stuff to worry about! from my studies to my dad & grandma's health to my 2 brothers and MONEY! I am not born in a nothing to worry family. IT can be a challenge to sharpen my Character. But i just hope that friends around me noe that i am not a weirdo or friends that cannot be trust. I alway need Pillars to support me to keep going!!! I am happy to have some of them to be alway there for me. Like hazel,serene, jerlin,yuxiang(alway bully me),xiao hui jie,liu yan,peiwen, jiayan jie(dabian jiejie),meiyi(alway my best sis),zhiqi,huijing,cuthbert,peggy chu,willie(although busy with ur study),marilyn,melissa and zuqing kor(alway finding lobang for me to earn some allowances).

Glad to have u guys around me.. if not i sure will alway be at one corner crying.. Butt i m kinda of greedy hor.. i still need more pillars.. hahaa... But friends!!! love u guys!!!!!

Just feel down as i cant be a good friends!!!! =)

NOW, really wonder how many of my friends will come to my 21st birthday chalet party.. thanks to my kor for sponsoring the money for the chalet as he will be oversea working. Well my dad wont be joining me in my celebration.... Plus i hope to get blessing from my mum, but cannot, cos she is no longer with me. So i intend to share my grown up with my friends. But duno how many of them will come.. Kinda disappointed when i see friends who replied me that they unable to turn up.

Sigggghhhhzzzzz

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