Have been "emo" this 2 months! haha.. now thinking back!! wonder whether i can clear my This Semester anot! result releasing next weD (17/8). I really hope i can clear, so that my plan of graduating next may will be smooth!!! =)) No money to pay more Sch fees oredi!!! sighz

For my Religons Issues.. I will slowly be back to track, after lost track for a few months, i will be back soon, just dun give me too much pressure... i Noe what i want!! Thanks for the Great and warm concern!! I really feel it but i need some Time... Rather stress and busy with the Final Yr Project! i sure be back to where i am in the Religon!! I just mainly need some Time!! =)

Back to the Topic!! Fading Smiles!!! sighz! Was Rather "Free" this few days! was thinking back.. My poly days nt that great as to compare with my ITe days! Just duno why, But that is a strong feeling.. Having a rather lousy result and i think that isnt me!!! but it is coming to the last semester and i only realised it now! i think it is too LAte... I alway Say i will work hard for my New SEmester but i alway failed to do so!! really thinking now, What i want in my life.. what i study is it my future career?? Having some side change i feel, Doing some sales make me feel more outspoken! haha... like telling lies to the customers.. Omg!!! =(

I also duno what i talking about...

Oh Well, When i first enter poly, i told myself pass the module can liao, no need to score, but i think back, this make me feel so LOW among all my classmates.. Is this really wad i wan now? yes, i really just make through for my results.. Sigh!! like that which employer wan to empoly me? sighz.. BAd Result = Bad knowledge! sighz.. Am i nt a good studying material?? Was helping in a broadway, seeing pple wearing those graduation gown!! degree, master, PHD.. why they can so easily get those cert and i was struggling so hard just to get a Diolpma??? AM I REALLY A STUPID IDIOT?

Fade Smiles yes! feeling nt that happy as to compare to my ITE days, Really have the fun During that full 2 yrs!! alway laughing and JOKE AROUND! but now. nah, i become a person with less smiles and more serious and fierce look... sighz, i noe, is this call mature? but that's nt me!!!! i dun wan the MEIZHEN now!!! sighz...

Friends and Family are equally important to me!!! But found out lesser and lesser friends around me.. Just duno why. am i a bad friend? haa.. orh maybe i am really 1... =(

Who can really bring back my Real Self with my hAppily laughter and smile?? rEally duno what to say!!! My life is really nt that smooth, really envy those who are shelter by their happily and warm family! their Father and mother!!!! With their Smart Brains!!

I noe i cant alway envy others, i am really not too bad, at least getting a diolpma soon, some friends cant even get in to SP.. i understand.. But just cant stop thinking that.. haha.. Today is really a long entry!!! have patient looking at my Negative siDE den!! =))

Meeting my FYP Supervisor soon.. will blog about my FYP details soon.. Sighz..

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